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Friday, September 24, 2010

Missing My Pattern


The pattern that has developed this year with my migraines seem to be changing. It used to be that the time between ovulation and when my period starts was the best time. It was the time when I had the fewest migraines and it was harder for them to be triggered. This month isn't playing out the way it ought it. I ovulated more than a week early and I've had a migraine every day since.

I'm pretty frustrated about this change. The only upside to my migraines this year is that I've had this predictable pattern and could kind of schedule things around it. I still got migraines, but fewer of them. I feel like I'm only left with a hope that is just an odd month and my body will return to pattern next month. But I'm a worrier these days and so I worry my body is actually returning to how it was last year and the two years before that.

Then I worry that if I'm returning to the previous years of no-pattern it is because my remaining ovary is under attack by my endometreosis. After all, this pattern only emerged after having the destroyed ovary removed in January. Hanging onto this last ovary is pretty darn important as far as I'm concerned. I'm just too young for menopause.

Additionally, I just don't want to return to the unpredictability of prepattern days. I never knew what was going to happen.

Have any of you experienced a loss of your pain pattern ever?

3 comments:

  1. http://throughthewordsofchronicpain.blogspot.com/2010/09/what-women.html

    so sorry, i so get ya. sometimes, so sorry most of the time being a women is the pits. to your question i have. i suffer with severe menstrual migraines and i have at times have free months but for the most i suffer. as you can see form my last post on my blog.

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  2. I never had a pain pattern, per se. Mine are all the time. I know it's hard, but please try not to worry too much. I will keep you in my prayers. Blessings, dear one.

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  3. My sister had her migraines increase to daily during perimenopause, but like me the migraines stopped when she had a hysterectomy. When I had migraines tho I would sometimes have 3-4 months where the pattern would increase, and then for no reason go back to my old pattern. Never knew why.
    Love your illustration for this post!!!

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