Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
How The Grinch Stole Christmas: I love this holiday classic so long as it is the book or this short animated version. As much as I would love to have this in my DVD collection I won't pay $24.99 for less than 30 minutes of show. Instead I make sure to catch it on network TV, commercials and all.
A Charlie Brown Christmas is the only other animated classic I take in each year. Luckily I got this one for Christmas one year so I can watch it at my leisure.
The original Home Alone is another great holiday flick. I don't know that it can be classified as a classic but I sure enjoy watching it around this time.
A Christmas Story: This movie is good clean fun. I used to have it on VHS but it was destroyed long ago. TBS usually will runs it back to back for 24 hours on Christmas day but since we don't have cable I'll have to order it from Netflix.
Jingle All The Way: Now I'll go ahead and admit that this is not a great movie but for some reason I like it. Well I like the first hour or so of it. I like it for two reasons. First it was filmed in Minneapolis an area I'm very familiar with. Second, Phil Hartman's character is fabulous. He doesn't have a big part but he is seen throughout it.
The Red Shoes is an old movie but I don't know that it would be considered a classic. It certainly isn't a Christmas movie but it is something that I saw several years in a row on Christmas day when I was very young so it feels like a holiday to movie to me. It is sort of weird and a little dark - maybe this is why I like weird and dark movies. Moulin Rouge: Okay this one isn't a Christmas movie either but it is my absolute favorite movie ever made. I limit myself to only viewing it once a year so I don't grow tired of it and I choose to watch it around Christmas or the New Year because that is when I first got it on DVD.
How about you? What movies do you like to watch this time of year?
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I'm feeling relieved to be back home with my husband and dog. Looks like the snow followed me here - not what I wanted to see. I'm so sick of snow and cold.
The longer I'm home the more sleepy I'm becoming. Part of me just wants to get stuff done around here things have gotten rather messy since I've been away but the rest of me just wants to nap. My brain is already starting to slow way down, which means I really should stop blogging.
I'll be back to blogging regularly now that I'm back at home. How are you all doing?
Sunday, December 12, 2010
I hate to put this off another day but along I 80 from Indiana through Ohio the land is very flat and the forecast is calling for both snow (90% chance) and wind. I've lived in Minnesota long enough to know that even a light snow with wind can be super dangerous on these long flat interstates. Better to be safe and wait another day.
Maybe I can squeeze in another visit or two with friends.
Boy I sure do miss my husband and dog. Darn snow *sigh*
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
We have decided that my chest symptoms are most likely the result of anxiety. What's so interesting about this is that I was not at all aware that I was experiencing anxiety - and enough of it that it is causing some pretty dramatic physical symptoms. Dr Garza explained that it is a medical condition like any other where you feel the symptoms of anxiety even without a stimulus. It makes more sense now and I've been thinking to myself that perhaps the early sign of this anxiety creeping into my life is all the spasms in my muscles and tensions in my neck. The doc is going to seek the opinion of someone in psychiatry to see if I should be medicated for this or if I may just respond to mediation and such.
Overall I'm very pleased with the new plan and am hopeful that relief may be on the way by March. I'll wait until I get back home before starting the new plan. There is still so much going on here and I have that long drive home.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
It was the Mayo neuro. He got my message about the no from my insurance company and he was mad. We had a short conversation about what happened when I called and then he announced that he had some time right now and he would like to call them and "see if I can find a human being."
I wanted to cry.
I never felt like I had a true ally in a doctor before. I never felt like my doctor was so invested and dedicated to my health.
He called me later that afternoon to report that despite spending a 1/2 hour (!) on the phone with my insurance company he was not able to talk sense into them. He spent a 1/2 hour of his time advocating for me. Ladies and gentlemen, presenting my new favorite person - Dr Garza! *cheers and applause* I don't even care that botox is still a no. He says there is still plenty we can do.
I have my follow up with him this afternoon - during which time I will do everything I can to see if he will manage my care from a distance. Wish me luck.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
My driver side door window froze in place on Friday and then fell into the door. Now it moves up and down but it is clearly not in the right place and so it doesn't close entirely. Thankfully my mom has a garage and offered to let me park there and put her car on the street so when the snow fell it didn't fall inside my car. I have an appointment with the VW people later today - hopefully it won't be an expensive fix.
In the meantime my mom starts PT today. We still don't know how many times a day/week she'll need to go. I really want to make my way up to the Mall of America to go to the Gap Body like I tried to do over the summer when I was here.
Today I'm also expecting to hear from my doc that I can start up the Imitrex again. I'm hopeful for a good day. And I hope that your day is good too :)
Friday, December 3, 2010
He was able to determine the problem was not with my lungs and sent me for a stress test to induce the pain and see watch what happens to my heart. As luck would have it, I was able to have that done today too. The tech indicated that things looked pretty normal so I'm very optimistic that I'll be able to start treating my migraines again.
The question remains - what is going on then. They wondered aloud if this was an anxiety response and I'm afraid I wasn't much help. I could tell them that I've been very stressed and anxious since this all started because of the traveling and needing to feel okay to take care of my mom and her dogs. I don't think I felt anxious before...can you have a panic attack without knowing it? Well, if that is what is going on here then at least it sounds easy to treat.
What was most interesting about the appointment is the revelation that I have not been taking my preventative correctly. He says that not only was the dosage not adequate but he said none of the preventative meds will work when I'm taking so many rescue meds. Have I seriously spent years of my life in pain and trying all kinds of preventatives in a manner that was ineffective? Years!
He suggested botox as a preventative because it works faster than the meds. Unfortunately my insurance said no to that idea.
I don't know what to do with that. Maybe it is time for a new neuro back home. Maybe this guy can be my doc...can I make that work from this distance?
I'm too tired, sore and in pain right now to give it much attention.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
I did get a call from the Mayo neuro's office a couple hours ago. He had a cancellation for tomorrow morning so they gave me that appointment. For the first time in more than a week the intense panic and fear that has taken up residency in my gut has gone down a bit. I just pray that he'll be able to help get me through these next couple weeks so I can take good care of my mom and drive myself back home.
The guy who did my occipital nerve decompression more than a year ago has offered me two more procedures during which he can disconnect the nerves above my eyes, on my temples and behind my ears. I had been putting it off because I wanted to find the cause, tackle it directly and avoid more surgery. I'm over it. I don't care what has caused my pain to get so out of control, I just need the pain to stop. Especially now that I don't really have a way to treat my migraines. As soon as I get back and can sit down with my neurologist I'm going to push to have it done ASAP. Even if it means doing it over the holidays.
I don't like this feeling of desperation and urgency.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
This situation continues to get worse. I can't manage without a rescue. I don't know what to do here. I'm so scared.
Today I'm going to try to get an appointment with the neurologist I saw back in July at Mayo. At least he is here and maybe can offer some help.