Thursday, June 21, 2012

Shaking in my Boots #NMAM #NMAMBC

Living with chronic migraines and fibromyalgia has been such a challenge. A huge unexpected challenge that has forced all kinds of change and uncertainty into my days. And that has been so scary. 

My fears are too numerous to list here but here are some of the big ones:

 - I fear that my conditions won't improve
 - I fear that I won't ever be able to work again
 - I fear that my health care costs will soon become too high for us to afford
 - I fear that my fears will take over my life

At the heart of all my fears is the fact that I feel so utterly vulnerable. 

Keeping these fears in check is in itself a challenge. I work hard at not allowing myself to dwell on all the scary what-ifs my brain can imagine. After all, most of what I fear I have little to no control over. And the things I do have some control over, well, I try to keep those thoughts hopeful.

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  1. Hang in there, I am with you on those fears and add in a few to keep us hopping: Will i get so sick that my husband and friends ditch me for a healthier woman? Disease progression is inevitable; how bad will it get? Will I be able to make my own end of life choices? And if I am, will I be strong enough to enact them for myself?

  2. I totally understand your fears! I try very hard, like you, not to dwell on them. Most days I am okay, it is at night that it gets to me, if it does. Praying really helps keep my fears to a minimum. We can't let our fears get the best of us.