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Tuesday, September 25, 2012

A Bad Spell

I'm having one of those days when I just just to curl up surrounded by comfy pillows and covers, in quiet darkness and just sleep through the next several days of migraines. That's right, I'm in another bad stretch of continuous migraine pain. It's exhausting and tends to make me irritable and pessimistic. No matter how much progress I've made in dealing with my chronic pain issues it is during these really bad stretches that everything seems to fall apart.
If only I could sleep through these times, but since I can't I'm forced to cope with it. Far too often that means snapping at my husband and then apologizing for being in this state. It means taking more meds and escaping into the droning of the TV. It means I don't feel like doing anything, or going anywhere, or talking to anyone but my husband. It means I begin to feel like I'm wasting my life and then the guilt and sadness set in. The longer it goes on the worse I feel mentally and emotionally.

Okay so that's not exactly healthy coping but it is usually how these stretches go. I still go ahead and do the relaxation practices, stretching and such but it all feels empty and unproductive. I know it will pass eventually but that knowledge doesn't do much to stop it from wearing me down.

Do any of you go through these periods of times? How do you deal with it?

3 comments:

  1. yes, I do. I try to rest as much as possible. Most of the time I also have to still teach a few lessons so that makes it a bit harder and other times it does help me get away from the pain because I am focusing on something else. If it is really really bad then I just have to cancel lessons and hide. It does wear me down too. I am working on trying to find some other way to cope. I hope this stretch won't last too long.

    heather

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  2. I definitely have bouts with the blues, and sometimes it goes really dark. To pull myself back up, I make a point to treat myself.

    I drink my favorite tea, indulge myself with my favorite foods, I watch shows that make me laugh in spite of myself, and I seek out the perspectives of others going through the same thing. Other migraine blogs (like yours!) help me to feel not quite as alone.

    Have strength, we're all here with you. :)

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  3. I have gone through this, and knowing us and what we've been through our hubby's understand and don't hold it against us. I am so fortunate that I haven't had a really bad spell, or flare, in a while. I still get very tired very easy, but I hope my bitchy days are done with :)

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